Well, I had my fifth round of chemo this past week, and it really took me down more than a few notches in terms of fatigue. For the first time in a long time, getting up in the morning, and working through the day, was a challenge. I tried to rationalize my way out of admitting that it was chemo related. Maybe I just didn't get enough sleep, I told myself. But when I went in to get my portable chemo pump disconnected, the nurse reminded me that the side effects are usually cumulative. They will likely get more pronounced as I progress through the regimen. It's not quite "the medicine is worse than the disease," but it is a hard to face up to the fact that it might become the new normal.
But all that aside, the treatments are still proving to be amazingly helpful.
Thank you all for the kind words and good wishes. I recently heard from some of my old friends from Providian days, and it really helped to read their words of support.
I'll just keep taking it one day at a time.